As I was headed downhill, Mark Roemke jumped onto my inner tube. I didn't even care he jumped right onto my head, pressing my forehead against the ice all the way down the hill. When we got to the bottom, I joined my friends and was all "You guys! Mark!! Was on my head!!!"
Only then did I realize that my head actually hurt. A lot, in fact. I had a nice big scrape over my right eyebrow thanks to Mark. I may have tried to milk his sympathy the rest of the retreat. I don't remember if it worked or not, but I do remember that one time he told me, very seriously, that I had a perfect nose. At the time I was flattered, but now sometimes I look at my nose in profile and wonder what exactly he meant. Perfectly pointy? Maybe.
In any case, that scrape turned into a scab, then healed into a scar that you can still see today, just barely. When the scab fell off, I carefully taped it into my journal. I don't know why I did that except that I was a middle school girl and the scab was a reminder of a time when the boy I liked chose me. Well, he chose my inner tube to jump onto, but in my heart I knew it was me that he chose.
It grosses me out a little bit to think that I saved my scab and put it in my journal.
Scabs are not bad, they're part of how our skin heals. Hurt feelings are not bad either, they help us to know what is going on inside of us. Once we recognize our feelings are hurt, we can address the wound and healing can take place.
When the wound heals, there's no reason to hold on to the hurt. It's a little bit gross to see a scab taped carefully into a prominent place. Like a blog post, for instance. Or a Facebook status line.
"Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you." Colossians 3:13
As the Lord forgave you. He forgave me as he was dying on the cross. He forgave me all my sins, even though I didn't deserve it. That's how I need to forgive others.
There will probably still be scars. We don't need to forget the pain, we can learn from hurts. But we do need to forgive and throw away the scabs. They're not meant to be saved.
Linking up with Amanda's Desire to Inspire and Casey Leigh's On My Heart.